17 7 / 2014

I Couldn’t Go To Sleep… So This Happened

I’m sure everyone has had nights where they just didn’t feel tired. Yesterday/today was one of those times for me. So of course, instead of trying to go to sleep, I get on tumblr. Scrolling through my dash, I came across spoilers/pics of the OUAT set for season 4. One thing led to another and I ended up looking up where they were filming. I knew it was in Canada, but I didn’t know where exactly. So anyways I looked that up, found out that it was near Vancouver, and before I could get sucked in even more, I switched over to Instagram.

Have you ever seen a picture on Instagram and have totally fallen in love with the location that you want to go? Well that’s what happened to me. I was scrolling down my feed (I should probably not do this if I want to go to sleep) and came across a picture of Crater Lake. I mapped it out as well, realized it was only about a state or two away from where OUAT shoots and ta da, a road trip is born.

I had seen a Kandee Johnson birthday blog where she went to Lake Tahoe, and suddenly everything went into overdrive. I brought up my trusty google map, reverted to the old version with my places and set out on laying out the first draft of my road trip. I had already started thinking about traveling within the US when I realized just how close Dallas was to Oklahoma. This just made it into more of a reality. I’ve wanted to go back to Lake Louise ever since I went like five/six years ago, so I threw that into the mix. I also wanted to visit San Francisco, Seattle and Portland. Then I just started looking around on the map and googling for best sights in the northwest, or just remembering about trees big enough to driver through and what not, and not two hours later came up with a road trip that would span most of the west and go into Canada and make it’s way back to Dallas.

It’s a lot for only two hours, isn’t it? Did I overkill it? This is just what happens when I’m not tired and my traveling bug takes hold. Like I literally am looking at the freeways, how it would best make sense to go everywhere and waste little time in driving around. Looking at the map I’m able to figure out what should go together and in what order. But that’s just my over planning brain. Except I’m half serious about actually going on this road trip. Like I’m serious. The only thing holding me back is money, the fact that I would have to drive, and me needing to a do a little more research into this thing, but hey, it’s completely possible. And it’s exciting to think that I could actually do this. That there isn’t anything or anyone holding me back. It would be worth it. Trust me.

I should probably go to sleep now. Anyways here is my trip plan. (And it’s not all the way zoomed into the cities, so there’s more that you can’t see.)

15 7 / 2014

Have you ever been reading a book and felt like you just have to finish the book before you go to sleep? It happens with me all the time, but this time, shit went in a completely different direction than the last times. 

So, even though I was tired and my eyes were straining, I pushed myself to continue reading. It was past my bedtime (ps. its not really my bedtime, just more of like a point of when I should probably go to sleep if I want to wake up the next day). Anyways, now this book, it had given me some moments where I was just annoyed with the characters but it was fine, I moved on and continued reading. But just as I was getting to the climax of the story, shit happened that got me furious at the book, the story, the goddamn characters, all of it. Like hell no, throw your book at the wall, furious. And I really tried not to throw the book, but not two seconds passed before it hit the wall. I just, could not continue. And it’s something I’d never felt before. 
With most books, I usually do have a lot of feels, but usually they’re with the characters or the plot or whatever, but this anger/annoyance was directed at the book in general. This book just got me annoyed and mad. It wasn’t even a good or well written book. The only part it succeeded in was making me feel these intense feelings. This book is like… I literally just glared at the book in position on the floor. I wanted to read it and finish it but, but it was too soon and I was too upset. So I went to sleep instead.
Ok, and i know that my annoyances with the book are simple to fix in reality, but were necessary for the plot (kinda). It was just annoying when I had to read it and was like it’s fucking simple you stupid characters. I felt like hitting this author upside the head. All they needed was a small frank and honest conversation that would maybe last like two pages and done, everything fucking solved. But no, I had to deal with all the other crap. I know, I know, that little conversation would not make and interesting novel but do you really want to piss off your readers. I was mad tempted to just scrap the book and be done with it. It was also the first book from this author, and well, she made and impression. I’m not sure if it’s good or bad through. I still ended up finishing the book, so that might mean something.

*I also wish that there weren’t so many story lines in this book. I tended to lose track of where characters are and kept having to reread a page to make sense of everything.  

15 7 / 2014

Developer: Revisited

My last post was the beginning of the revisit to my hair guide. With the new experience of dying my cousins hair, I think I should give the developers another chance. http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/72918665565/part-one-choosing-developer-my-first-tip-is-to Like I said in the last post, I usually stick with a 20 because its not as harsh as the 30 or 40, but sometimes you need the strength. 

My cousins had thick, frizzy, wavy/curly hair and it was a bitch to bleach with a twenty, hell even a thirty. So I would recommend a 40 vol. I would watch it and leave it in for 20 to 40 minutes. I also recommend tying a bag over it to keep in the heat, and even blast it a couple times with a hair dryer. Heat helps with bleach.
If you have straight but thick hair, then you might be able to get away with 30 vol. do the same as before, watch it for 20 to 40 minutes.
And if you have straight but thin hair, you can do a twenty. Or a thirty, but stick with a 30.

You can still stick with the 20 vol for whatever your hair type is, if you want, but it’ll take longer to bleach your hair. It’s fine, if you take awhile though, just keep sure to hydrate and moisturize your hair after every bleach. Look at the rest of my guide to dying your hair.

Developer: Revisited

My last post was the beginning of the revisit to my hair guide. With the new experience of dying my cousins hair, I think I should give the developers another chance. http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/72918665565/part-one-choosing-developer-my-first-tip-is-to Like I said in the last post, I usually stick with a 20 because its not as harsh as the 30 or 40, but sometimes you need the strength. 

My cousins had thick, frizzy, wavy/curly hair and it was a bitch to bleach with a twenty, hell even a thirty. So I would recommend a 40 vol. I would watch it and leave it in for 20 to 40 minutes. I also recommend tying a bag over it to keep in the heat, and even blast it a couple times with a hair dryer. Heat helps with bleach.

If you have straight but thick hair, then you might be able to get away with 30 vol. do the same as before, watch it for 20 to 40 minutes.

And if you have straight but thin hair, you can do a twenty. Or a thirty, but stick with a 30.

You can still stick with the 20 vol for whatever your hair type is, if you want, but it’ll take longer to bleach your hair. It’s fine, if you take awhile though, just keep sure to hydrate and moisturize your hair after every bleach. Look at the rest of my guide to dying your hair.

14 7 / 2014

Bleaching Your Hair: Revisited

An old post of mine was how to bleach your hair. You can click over and read it before coming back to refresh your memory if you want. Or just keep reading on, it’s your call. http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/73102629214/part-two-bleaching-your-hair-my-second-tip-is-to

So, why am I revisiting my old post? Well, this past week and a half, I’ve been trying to bleach one of my cousins hair. She wanted her hair to fade into blue. So we got manic panic shocking blue and manic panic. But damn, I never realized just how the type of hair you have affects how your hair bleaches. See, I guess me and my sisters have similar hair types, kinda. I have straight thin hair, while my sisters go from wavy to wavy curly. But our hair still bleaches the same way, kinda. My cousin on the other hand has thick, frizzy, wavy/curly hair and it was a bitch to bleach. Like I had to bleach her hair three times and it still barely got to the color my hair usually bleaches to on the first try, and even then it was a little darker. I used a 20 vol. the first bleach. It kinda worked, lightening it up to like a medium/light brown. But she had a lot of hair, so when we washed it out, one side was lighter because the bleach had been in there longer. Usually I do twenty minutes from the time I finish putting on the bleach. But it took forever with hers, so it came out uneven. I told her it was okay, that I would go the opposite direction the next time to even it out. So when I did the second bleach, I decided to do each half separately. But when we washed out the second bleach on the first section, it looked exactly the same as the other side, lightening to a more orangey blondish brownish color. We were just like what the hell? So we ended up not bleaching the other side so that it at least looked even. On the second time, I moved up to a 30 vol. and left it in even longer, from 20 min to 30 min. But her hair was till stubborn as fuck. The only time my hair had reacted like hers had been when I’d dyed my hair black and was having to remove hair dye.
Unfotunately, I did not have the time to continue bleaching to get it to the blonde it needed to be, because I left two days after that. The blue turned out more green than blue, but at least she looked like a mermaid lol. But if I had the chance to do it over again, I’d probably start with a 40, then slowly make my way up to the 20. probably like 40 vol and 40 minutes, 30 vol and 30 minutes, then if needed, 20 vol with 20 minutes. So I guess this also has to do with my developer post as well. (http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/72918665565/part-one-choosing-developer-my-first-tip-is-to) And now that I remember when I first bleached my hair, like the first time, I did do a 40 for 40. But I also didn’t want to fry her hair, so I just started with 20.

I guess the main point of this revisiting is that your hair texture and thickness affects just how the bleach works. 

Bleaching Your Hair: Revisited

An old post of mine was how to bleach your hair. You can click over and read it before coming back to refresh your memory if you want. Or just keep reading on, it’s your call. http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/73102629214/part-two-bleaching-your-hair-my-second-tip-is-to

So, why am I revisiting my old post? Well, this past week and a half, I’ve been trying to bleach one of my cousins hair. She wanted her hair to fade into blue. So we got manic panic shocking blue and manic panic. But damn, I never realized just how the type of hair you have affects how your hair bleaches. See, I guess me and my sisters have similar hair types, kinda. I have straight thin hair, while my sisters go from wavy to wavy curly. But our hair still bleaches the same way, kinda. My cousin on the other hand has thick, frizzy, wavy/curly hair and it was a bitch to bleach. Like I had to bleach her hair three times and it still barely got to the color my hair usually bleaches to on the first try, and even then it was a little darker. I used a 20 vol. the first bleach. It kinda worked, lightening it up to like a medium/light brown. But she had a lot of hair, so when we washed it out, one side was lighter because the bleach had been in there longer. Usually I do twenty minutes from the time I finish putting on the bleach. But it took forever with hers, so it came out uneven. I told her it was okay, that I would go the opposite direction the next time to even it out. So when I did the second bleach, I decided to do each half separately. But when we washed out the second bleach on the first section, it looked exactly the same as the other side, lightening to a more orangey blondish brownish color. We were just like what the hell? So we ended up not bleaching the other side so that it at least looked even. On the second time, I moved up to a 30 vol. and left it in even longer, from 20 min to 30 min. But her hair was till stubborn as fuck. The only time my hair had reacted like hers had been when I’d dyed my hair black and was having to remove hair dye.

Unfotunately, I did not have the time to continue bleaching to get it to the blonde it needed to be, because I left two days after that. The blue turned out more green than blue, but at least she looked like a mermaid lol. But if I had the chance to do it over again, I’d probably start with a 40, then slowly make my way up to the 20. probably like 40 vol and 40 minutes, 30 vol and 30 minutes, then if needed, 20 vol with 20 minutes. So I guess this also has to do with my developer post as well. (http://incandescentduality.tumblr.com/post/72918665565/part-one-choosing-developer-my-first-tip-is-to) And now that I remember when I first bleached my hair, like the first time, I did do a 40 for 40. But I also didn’t want to fry her hair, so I just started with 20.

I guess the main point of this revisiting is that your hair texture and thickness affects just how the bleach works. 

13 7 / 2014

Writing that last post, I realized that it sounded like she’d personally done something bad to me, like the offense was against me. And I know it wasn’t, I know it’s her body, her shit. But I’m not stupid about it. Eventually it will start to affect me, affect the family. Right now it might just be one cigarette every now and then, but it won’t stop at that. My family, both sides actually, tend to have addictive personalities. We have a problem with alcohol and a lot of my family members do smoke, but my immediate family didn’t really have to deal with that, till now. I mean it’s not like she’s acting any different, because she’s not. She’s just the same old mom, with all that that entails. I, just, I tend to think about outcomes/consequences, and the future. Like what if she gets lung cancer because of this? I know, a little dramatic, but it’s always a possibility. My family has a ton of medical problems so hell, even if I don’t remember if anyone died of cancer or even if no one has, it doesn’t mean someone won’t, and I’d rather it wasn’t my mother. I just, I don’t know. I kinda wish no one had told me until after we returned from our vacation. We’re gonna be together in a car for about two solid days (driving there and back) then living in near proximity for the rest of the week. This is going to be on the forefront of my mind for most of the week, I just know it. And you know what, my sisters are acting like every things normal, as if our mom just hadn’t started smoking. Is it that I’m just overreacting and making a big deal out it? I just wish it had never happened. Ugh.

13 7 / 2014

So I’m home for a while. I’m spending a week visiting people I haven’t seen before the entire family and I leave for our vacation to pensacola. Now I’m happy and excited to go. I ‘m ready for a week of just lounging by the pool or beach and just vegging out. No, what I’m conflicted about is something that my sister just told me, and I don’t know how to react and feel about it. 
So, my sister and I were headed to heb to pick up a couple things when my sister told me her suspicions about my mom. Ok, see, before we left I asked my mom if I could drive her car, but she said no, doggedly, and said to take either my dads truck or the small kia that is kinda crap. So off in the kia we went and my sister brought up what she and my youngest sister were thinking, that my mom is smoking.
Here are the facts that she laid out for me.
1. My dad has asked my sister, three times by her account, if she’s been smoking cigarettes because he’s been finding cigarette butts in the front of the house. She told him no, since she smokes an e-cigarette. She even showed him the e-cig, even when he knew she smoked it. And each additional time he got more upset thinking she was lying to him. But again, she directed him to her e-e-cig. She does not smoke cigarettes.
2. Both my sisters have gone into my moms car and have separately noticed a not full, opened carton of cigarettes. They’ve both said that since then, or sine around that time, my mother has started to refuse anyone to drive her car. My dad lets it go because my mom bought herself that car, but my sister think that she doesn’t let anyone use it either because it’s where she keeps her cigs or it might smell like cigarettes. 
3. So I guess not letting anyone use her car could be point #3.
4. My little sister pointed out that all of my moms friends smoke. My other sister wondered that it might have just started out as social smoking that you know, took hold. Who knows? My other sister also said that my moms has been arriving home late and that when she does get home, heads straight to her room to take a shower. She thinks it might be to wash off any lingering smells from the cig. Which makes sense, if you think about.
So with all that, I can’t help but believe them. And I’m feeling a lot of things about it. For one, I’m upset. My parents have always been against any type of drug. Hell, they are always coming down on my sister because of her connection to it. But she’d cleaning up, sorta and only does the e-cig and hooka. So that my mom has started to smoke, just angers me. I’m just like come on, what the fuck are you thinking. It’s not like she doesn’t know what happens when you start to smoke. Plus it’s my mom, like really? And I guess because it feels a little personal, I keep feeling like just babbling her secret or even threatening her with it. Like fucking stop that shit. (I would only threaten bc she’s in control of the thermostat and keeps it fucking warm. Plus it would mean revealing to her that I know that it’s not a secret.) But then, I love my mom, and I haven’t seen her in month so I just want to hug her. The other part of me just wants to cut her loose and say fuck you. Like what the fuck are you doing. I just don’t know what to feel or do, so I’m just doing nothing… other than writing about. 
What do you think about it? Do you think I should believe my sisters beliefs that my mom smokes? And if so, what should I do? How the hell should I react to this?  

06 7 / 2014

You know I always thought I was a 90’s kid since I was born in the 90’s. I mean I do know of things from the 90’s but I’m starting to realize that I’m more of a 2000’s kid.

I have just come off a Boy Meets World marathon and I can’t believe that it started like a month before I was born. True 90’s kids grew up with the series, could actually understand it. Therefore I am not a 90’s kid, I’m more like a 90’s baby. But anyways, the show is like really good. I literally watched for 3 days straight and am just starting Season 3…but decided I needed a break. Especially when I haven’t had a decent meal since I started watching. But like the feels that came with watching it are worth it-like, oh my god. And I know the show can get a little after school special but in the enjoyable way, not like the heavy handed annoying nowadays kinda way, like, think disney or even lifetime where you’re like, really? Anyways that’s just what I’ve been doing the past two days. 

01 7 / 2014

Sorry I’ve been a little MIA. Final are this week and I still have a crap ton to do. Anyways, while I was procrastinating I stumbled across this video on youtube and oh my god- I love it. The song, the video, the style, everything. Plus the song is really catchy and I can’t seem to stop replaying it.

All About That Bass- Meghan Trainor

(Source: youtube.com)

21 6 / 2014

Oh my god. Sorry for still being in a throw back mood, but this is the definition of my childhood. Ugh, now I want to re watch most of them lol (even though I did recently try to re-watch High School Musical and got bored halfway through and just turned it off)

21 6 / 2014

This is the song that I always remember when I think of Fall Out Boy, even though I knew them from the Grand Theft Autumn/ Where Is Your Boy